I am not running, why?

Have I lost, or have won enough of it. If I have lost, against whom, against what, against those I was not even supposed to run. What is supposed, who decided what was I supposed to do. Me. So, the very fact that I ran ensures that I was suposed to. Or maybe, I have now realized that I interpreted myself wrongly, or rather what I interpret now is not what I interpreted then.

So today I think I am right, but does that ensure tomorrow I will never think I was wrong today.