Some excerpts from my diary...

The whole of lifetime is a bubble, by the time you realize another 10 years have passed by, the basic premise being we are supposed to be happy in this world instead we mostly end up struggling, fighting, wasting all the time, day by day, month by month, and before we realize years have passed by.

All of this is not very well organized... however some excerpts do make sense to me whenever I read them
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The race - a long run
The race - I am not running
The race - Rerun

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Gravity to God: This is the remains of my presentation at TCS, Trivandrum, as careless as I have ever been, I lost most of the material by the time I decided to put it in my dairy... anyway as it is influenced by physics it may maybe worthwhile reading.
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Desire and liberation: A pursuit.
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Perfection and love: A fresh perspective.
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What we see: What we observe and the truth about reality.
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A Prayer: and about most other conventional prayers.
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Its Morning Again: Start of another day in my life, whats different? Nothing I guess.
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Something in Hindi: it took a lot of people to read it 2-3 times. I like it as it is short and thought provoking.
pre-req: sufficient knowledge of Hindi, don't waste time on it if you don't know Hindi/Urdu.
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Thoughts: Thoughts with no meaning.
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Friend: True Friendship is the most beautiful thing in this world - if it exists.
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Gita: Its not just a sacred book, it defines way of life, and life itself, my endless struggles with myself culminate at this avenue. I reached a state when I thought I lost everything, my sanity, my very reason for being and I do not even want anything I lost back, its called self destruction by the lesser mortals, but it is this very state which makes me feel closer to achieving Nirvana, closer to be liberated, this is pure liberation because it was achieved without any desire of liberation - check the article 'desire and liberation'. This sacred book shows me this perspective to it.
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I miss my black diary which I do not carry any more with me, I can never be as comfortable on the net as I am in my black diary, as people may read this, but then, who cares. This is better than paper diary, as I am often on the go, if I have some thoughts and time, I can capture it, more frequently.



I have not opened my diary for public access, however if you may wish to see more files from my diary, contact me at shantanunigam@lycos.com, mostly I feel obliged to share the files from my diary if you really seem to be interested in reading them.